I don't really want to risk my integrity in exchange for some good fucking.

When people don't treat me the way I want to be treated I get this flare up in the back of my eyes that screams- DESTROY! Extra hard to control if I'm in a vulnerable state of drunkenness or exhaustion. It even kind of amuses me in a frightening way like "whoa, I can't believe I WANT to do those things." It happens most often towards people I resent in the first place. Hmmmph. The fuckin' wasn't that good and I hate hanging around people that bring this out in me.